Still figuring out the actual reason for my existence. Am sure we all have at some point of time, given it a thought. We are never happy with what we have, it's a nomadic mind we all possess, always trying to look out for something better, even though at that moment, you would be in the best of times. I have always considered myself to be someone with limited dreams. A few years back, when life was a lot different, I had so many wishes and there was a lot of disappointment with myself too, especially with the kind of person I was. To an extent, things haven't changed much, but then, atleast I have been witnessing the changes over the years within me and yes, I feel happy with the way I have graduated. But, it scares me when I think of my future. I have seen, just one action turning people's lives upside down and I definately don't want that to happen. I have seen that happening to myself. Right from those scary childhood memories to the life as a teenager. I don't want to live that kind of life ever. I am glad they are past me. I still have some memories that are gonna remain imprinted, but I guess, in such cases, as they say.."Time is a good healer". How I wish, we could choose the memories that required to be deleted from within us!

It's truely amazing the way you see people's life change, especially when you know you have been a witness to all the different happenings going on in their lives and the way their lives are all set and settled now..I am happy! I only wish all the happiness to them. May all remain happy and contented..Let there be peace!

Don't you think too much sometimes?

Phew!!It's a funny life that I am living at the moment...Never really given a thought about any thing lately. I remember those days when every action of mine would be backed by a series of thought processes. Don't see much change now though. Things then were equally complicated inspite of thinking and things now seem to be equally complicated!!!Atleast, now am saving some time n' energy not thinking!!!

Moral of the story: Dont' waste your time thinking!

Schummi....u rock!!!

Just done watching the race...as usual, am happy with Schummi's win!!!It definately was expected from him...I have been watching him win from God alone knows how many races now...I remember being at home on Sunday evenings, missing out on so many outdoor activities, just to be in front of the television, just to see this amazing racer win!!!Well, can't believe he is not gonna be there anymore from the next season...and don't know if I can watch any more Championships with the same interest and enthusiasm, the way I watch now...it's not gonna be the same...that's for sure!!!

Bleeding Me....

It's been a pretty messy week and also a very long one. Was waiting desparately for the weekend. I have never felt this weak and tired ever before. I wanted my body to have some rest. There are things that kinda make me think and lately I have come across a lot of reality in life which has kinda perturbed me intensely. I have seen so many changes around me and I suddenly feel people's reaction change towards me. I can't stop thinking what I have lost. But, it wasn't in my hands at all. There are a few who always wait patiently just to talk to me, to spend sometime with me, but it's just not in my hands to do something for them. Again, I understand, a person can't keep waiting all the time either..I am still blamed for not making an effort. Am I not a human being? We all have out set of problems that we would like to settle on our own..Don't we have so much of freedom to solve things on our own?/Is it so difficult for a person not to understand this???Yes, I feel disappointed..not with myself, but with such kinds who have expectations beyond reality...Give me the strength to face this!