Bleeding Me....

It's been a pretty messy week and also a very long one. Was waiting desparately for the weekend. I have never felt this weak and tired ever before. I wanted my body to have some rest. There are things that kinda make me think and lately I have come across a lot of reality in life which has kinda perturbed me intensely. I have seen so many changes around me and I suddenly feel people's reaction change towards me. I can't stop thinking what I have lost. But, it wasn't in my hands at all. There are a few who always wait patiently just to talk to me, to spend sometime with me, but it's just not in my hands to do something for them. Again, I understand, a person can't keep waiting all the time either..I am still blamed for not making an effort. Am I not a human being? We all have out set of problems that we would like to settle on our own..Don't we have so much of freedom to solve things on our own?/Is it so difficult for a person not to understand this???Yes, I feel disappointed..not with myself, but with such kinds who have expectations beyond reality...Give me the strength to face this!